You can’t get there from here



Well it seems that way sometimes though. It doesn’t matter what you want, every turn is the wrong turn.

That old question comes up…

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tis easy to think that way sometimes. Let it get you down. The world is against you, all the little things build up and overwhelm you. It is so easy to let it happen.



I want to make the gluten free bread. So I checked online and the bulk store I shop at listed a huge supply of all different types of gluten free flour… of course when you show up they don’t have any. 😦 

I will do it though, if I have to grind something up and bake it, but today I tried something new. Not gluten free. I made our weeks supply of regular french bread from my SECRET BREAD RECIPEI used some whole wheat flour this time to make it a bit different. 

But I also made a test loaf of a different type. Tomato bread. sliced tomato basil bread (Small) 

I found some recipes online but they were not quite right so I just made it. No that wasn’t it, that picture, my battery is still not charging, but it is close, mine was a richer darker colour. 

1 tsp salt
2 tablespoons of dried basil
1 tablespoon of onion powder
some ground pepper
3/4 cup of sauteed onions, chopped small
1 tbsp sugar
1 tbsp olive oil
2.5 teaspoons of yeast
1/2 cup warm water
1 small tin of tomato paste 5.5 oz
2-1/2 cups bread flour.. or so 1/3 of it whole wheat
1 egg yolk

It was a bit more goopy so I put it in a loaf tin. I lined it with parchment paper, that made it much easier to remove when cooked. I am not going to go into the basic recipe on how to knead the bread. I baked it for 45 minutes at 375 in an oven that had a pan of water for steam and I misted the oven until the bread was at full height.

WOW it was soooo great. well almost was, there is not a lot left, (greedy roomies, lol but that makes me smile when it vanishes fast) we are keeping some for toast tomorrow morning. We want to see how it is toasted. but wow!

So a small digression. please-keep-off-digress I just wanted to share a yummy bread recipe.. well most of a recipe.

This is what you have to do though, adapt sometimes. Rather than moan and go why me. Oh the gluten free flour is nothing in life, many things are serious. But often a lot of things are nothing too, but then you have two nothings, then three or six… or eight, and then it becomes something.

We can’t fix them all at once. We face this wall of nothings and it is daunting. we give up.

so we run and hide, withdraw into our shells. The nothings become stronger, more show up.

if though….

we can fix one nothing, make it something, something that no longer bothers us, we feel a bit better, that little accomplishment does so much to restore our self esteem. 

Sometimes we try to fix that nothing and it doesn’t go well.  We learn as that happens, we may not notice that we do, but we learn what didn’t work, perhaps what did… if we try again, we have experience now… maybe this time nothing can be beaten.


Each success breeds another, we forget this when overwhelmed. Life is good at overwhelming us. We forget that we can not do everything. 

Not all at once.

We can change some things. Many things though are out of our hands. If they are not in our control we need to understand that we can not feel guilt or obligation. We have to face the fact that some things, well we can not fix them. 


So give up?


What we can fix, we need to, need to try, what we can not, we need to let it go. Just like the serenity poem, to know the difference. The difference of what we can fix and what we can not.

OMG a lot of wandering. What have I said.

A summation is in order.

Life can be daunting. We can get down. overwhelmed. Things happen. We have to go at them one at a time, repair the ones we can and roll with the ones that we can not. 

wind_umbrella  So dust off, get up and go at it again. Get a bigger hammer, stick out your tongue, or get some help, someone to tackle those nothings with. Help is always good. Someone to hold your umbrella in life’s windstorm. help Or someone to help with other things. 

But don’t get in a rut. Sounds easy right? Well that is the secret, pick the easy ones first, fix them, that gives you a lift, it charges you up. Maybe even something not related to life’s problems. Paint a wall, wash the house, bake a loaf of tomato bread. 🙂



About sensuousamberville

I am a Practitioner, teacher and student. I think we should always be students, we should keep our minds open, to continue to learn. :-) Now a mother of two little ones.

20 responses »

  1. That tomato bread was two thumbs up!!!! Why was there only one loaf? Where is that loaf? It was a great experiment ber!

  2. Four buttery thumbs up. LOL yummy!

  3. I think it was eight thumbs up!

  4. I have read, I have absorbed, I will try. xxx

  5. *smiles* … a good post Amber. Sometimes we just need to here this.

    Little things do add up. Big things add up as well. And some of them as you say, we have no control over. But we fix what we can … and hope for the best in the other things. And when we misstep … like your picture says ….we try again tomorrow

    This post was for everyone I think. But I think I am getting to know you a little better too … and gets the feeling something … or someone was in your thoughts as you wrote this. It was a good blog post … the power of reaching out. No whapping from you too *gentle smile*

    But the bread part…that was for everyone *smiles*

    • Everyone seemed to eat the bread too *points to the crumbs* nasty roommates. lol

      Tis easy to feel like Atlas, the world on your shoulders, pressing down, and it is often like that. There are times when things mount up, each one is daunting enough on its own, life’s challenges, but when they pile up and we see no way out… we have to watch that we don’t change, because this pressure changes us.

      so we fix what we can, ignore what we can’t and don’t fear asking or feel shamed by asking for help to push mountains aside. Mountains need two people to move.

      (hijacked comment alert)

      • *grins* … is it hi-jacking if I like that you hi-jack it? Hmmmm….I will not think too much about that or it will drive me bonkers.

        Anyway …nods on the things you say…and esp nods on the moving of mountains. *smiles*

  6. You’re making me crave bread! lol!


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