Well it seems that way sometimes though. It doesn’t matter what you want, every turn is the wrong turn.
That old question comes up…
tis easy to think that way sometimes. Let it get you down. The world is against you, all the little things build up and overwhelm you. It is so easy to let it happen.
I want to make the gluten free bread. So I checked online and the bulk store I shop at listed a huge supply of all different types of gluten free flour… of course when you show up they don’t have any. 😦
I will do it though, if I have to grind something up and bake it, but today I tried something new. Not gluten free. I made our weeks supply of regular french bread from my SECRET BREAD RECIPE, I used some whole wheat flour this time to make it a bit different.
I found some recipes online but they were not quite right so I just made it. No that wasn’t it, that picture, my battery is still not charging, but it is close, mine was a richer darker colour.
1 tsp salt
2 tablespoons of dried basil
1 tablespoon of onion powder
some ground pepper
3/4 cup of sauteed onions, chopped small
1 tbsp sugar
1 tbsp olive oil
2.5 teaspoons of yeast
1/2 cup warm water
1 small tin of tomato paste 5.5 oz
2-1/2 cups bread flour.. or so 1/3 of it whole wheat
1 egg yolk
It was a bit more goopy so I put it in a loaf tin. I lined it with parchment paper, that made it much easier to remove when cooked. I am not going to go into the basic recipe on how to knead the bread. I baked it for 45 minutes at 375 in an oven that had a pan of water for steam and I misted the oven until the bread was at full height.
WOW it was soooo great. well almost was, there is not a lot left, (greedy roomies, lol but that makes me smile when it vanishes fast) we are keeping some for toast tomorrow morning. We want to see how it is toasted. but wow!
This is what you have to do though, adapt sometimes. Rather than moan and go why me. Oh the gluten free flour is nothing in life, many things are serious. But often a lot of things are nothing too, but then you have two nothings, then three or six… or eight, and then it becomes something.
We can’t fix them all at once. We face this wall of nothings and it is daunting. we give up.
so we run and hide, withdraw into our shells. The nothings become stronger, more show up.
we can fix one nothing, make it something, something that no longer bothers us, we feel a bit better, that little accomplishment does so much to restore our self esteem.
Sometimes we try to fix that nothing and it doesn’t go well. We learn as that happens, we may not notice that we do, but we learn what didn’t work, perhaps what did… if we try again, we have experience now… maybe this time nothing can be beaten.
Each success breeds another, we forget this when overwhelmed. Life is good at overwhelming us. We forget that we can not do everything.
Not all at once.
We can change some things. Many things though are out of our hands. If they are not in our control we need to understand that we can not feel guilt or obligation. We have to face the fact that some things, well we can not fix them.
So give up?
What we can fix, we need to, need to try, what we can not, we need to let it go. Just like the serenity poem, to know the difference. The difference of what we can fix and what we can not.
OMG a lot of wandering. What have I said.
A summation is in order.
Life can be daunting. We can get down. overwhelmed. Things happen. We have to go at them one at a time, repair the ones we can and roll with the ones that we can not.
So dust off, get up and go at it again. Get a bigger hammer, stick out your tongue, or get some help, someone to tackle those nothings with. Help is always good. Someone to hold your umbrella in life’s windstorm. Or someone to help with other things.
But don’t get in a rut. Sounds easy right? Well that is the secret, pick the easy ones first, fix them, that gives you a lift, it charges you up. Maybe even something not related to life’s problems. Paint a wall, wash the house, bake a loaf of tomato bread. 🙂